Life Cycle of Me

Kita tu kadang, tak berterima kasih dengan Allah. Kita terlalu nak tunjuk, kita ni hebat itu, hebat ini, beruntung itu, beruntung ini. Tapi dalam masa yang sama, susah itu, susah ini. Jadi orang lain kena tolong, kena beri peluang. Selfish! Padahal dalam hidup ini sangat adil. Ada orang lebih kat situ, tapi adalah tempat lain Allah kurangkan. Bila kita nampak orang tu tak ada, kita ada. Mulalah kita kecam, kata orang tu tak buat macam kita buat. Aku okay lagi, kalau sesetengah orang tu suka nak menunjuk-nunjuk kelebihan dia. Okay je, dah itu rezeki dia. Alhamdulillah, aku tumpang bersyukur. Tapi aku tak boleh nak okay, bila mana dia mula mengadili hidup orang lain. Mulalah nak kecam, kononnya orang tu tak cukup berusaha seperti dia! Oh my god, kau macam tau sangat pasal kehidupan orang. Dah tu, masa yang kau tak berusaha sampai nak senang macam orang lain tu tak apa pula?  Kita tak payah berlebih-lebih nak mengadili hakam hidup orang lain. Kita mungkin boleh utarakan pendapat kita seka...

Bukan kisah malam jumaat ye dik. Akak ni sejenis suci, kisah-kisah 18sx tu, akak tak suka nak ceritakan secara maya macam ni. Tapi kalau adik ni kawan akan kat real-life. You will know me as a totally different. Kekadang akak memang rasa akak ni ada split personality. Tapi akak sah kan di sini, Alhamdulillah, akak ni waras. Gila tu mungkin sejenis perangai, yang akak rasa normal je. Kalau adik rasa tak normal, itu masalah adik. Akak tak ambil port. Lantak kau lah situ. It is just you with your own opinion, you owned it, not me! Gituu. Sejenis tetibe emo tetibe ceria. Semalam, akak dah siap mandi wangi-wangi, laki akak announce: "I ada kerja ni..." So akak dah faham, kalau dia cakap gitu, maksudnya, dia expect akak jaga anak-anak, dan jangan kacau dia. Macamlah malam sebelum-sebelum tu dia yang jaga anak kan? Tapi akak sabar je. Dah 12 tahun akak sabar dik. Akak rasa kesabaran akak ni memang semakin lama semakin utuh. Begitulah cinta. Akak rasalahkan.. Then akak pun balas: ...

*Tahun peperiksaan Firdaus Hafiy Ammar Aisha* 2019 - Firdaus UPSR  (38) 2021 - Hafiy     UPSR  (40) 2022 - Firdaus  PT3     (41) 2024 - Firdaus SPM     (43)            Hafiy      PT3                 Ammar   UPSR 2026 - Hafiy      SPM    (45) 2027 - Ammar   PT3     (46)            Aisha      UPSR 2029 - Ammar   SPM    (48) 2030 - Aisha      PT3     (49) 2032 - Aisha      SPM    (51) -- Regards, Siti Fatimah Khairiah M Amin

Just feeling to write something today. Writing about your daily routine is good, so you don't lost track on things happening in your life. So, one day, when you want to write a novel about yourself, you have got the details ready and easy for you to jingle with it. Yesterday, was the second day of the week that you called, weekday. So, it was still not a tiring day, like normal Wednesdays. It feels like Tuesday. Its cooking day everyday now. Since we had a new baby now, we must force ourselves to be more frugal. So yesterday was Kari Sotong. When i was first got married. It has been numerous and tedious attempt to cook Kari. Any Kari you name it. Because, my husband, is so fond of Kari. I even thought, he must be one of the Indians decedent, but his not. It took me maybe 7 years? Of marriage, to finally master in making Kari. Master i mean, not too hot, not to be overwhelmed by Kari mixture, not too dull, not too fatty - oh my god, it were of those days when making Kari messed up w...

I just want to note down something. Because it has been awhile since i've posted anything. A simple write up shall do. 1. Weekend My weekend was spent wisely and simply. Worked as a team, the whole family and everything turn up smoothly. Alhamdulillah. There were three events coming. On saturday, as early as 720am we were on the road, moving to melawati, my husband's aunt house. Solemnization for her son at Rawang. Went there, and then move back, to Bangi to fix coating for BPN, our new baby. Back home just before Asar for prayers. I missed my good friend wedding. Been anticipating to meet her for so long. No luck. Even prepared small token for her. No rezeki. I feel like to use it today. Sorry Azliana Aziz. Hope that everything went well, and smooth sailing marriage till jannah! On sunday, the wedding ceremony for my husband's aunt son. On the bride side. Still in Rawang. So we went there again, after fried meehun breakfast and loads of laundries. We reached...

Mimpi pelik malam tadi. Tapi hanyalah sekadar mimpi.  Aku macam kena kawin dengan seseorang. Suasana macam kat kampung, rumah kampung. Ada sawah. Bukan rumah kampung aku, kat Sg Rambai. Bukan juga rumah kampung suami aku, kat Sg Besar. Tak nampak sangat muka orang yang aku kahwini dalam mimpi aku tu. Tapi macam aku terbayang-bayang muka Zulhuzaimy. Apakah? Lawak sikit di situ. The best part is, Zulhuzaimy ni, dalam mimpi aku tu la, ada adik beradik-adik kot. Dalam drama-drama kan biasanya yang ada kaitan dengan pengantin perempuan adik-adik. Hahahaha. Adik dia is Ungku Ismail Aziz? Apakah lagi sekali? Hahahaha. Ye serius memang terpampang muka Ungku Ismail Aziz dalam mimpi aku tu! Gilo! 1. Aku dah kawin (and i love my husband so much #tetibe!). 2. Ungku tu muda dari aku! Memang tak lah kan.  Kiranya dalam mimpi aku tu, nampak macam UIA tak happy. Aku pun tak happy, of course lah! Sebab aku memang minat dia lebih berbanding Zulhuzaimy (which aku tak minat pun! hello!). Kira macam kawin ...

I've been lately keen to these songs. Most of them, does not related to me, but i'm just enjoying the sound of it. Maybe because of the lyrics, because of the situation, idk. I just loves them and been singing them on my head over and over again. Though, i did not memorize the lyrics.  1. Menang - Faizal Tahir Aku harap En. Suami aku, tujukan lagu ni untuk aku. Tapi... Well, being more mature myself. I will let this to rest. But, i still have hopes.  2. Di Matamu - Sufian Shuhaimi Lirik dia memang macam ek ele lah sikit. Sufian macam salahkan EL buta-buta. Mula-mula aku geram jugak lah. Haha! Tapi lepas tu Fatin Afeefa buat cover lagi ni. Sedap kot suara Fatin. Mmg win lah. So aku pun mula dengar. Tak semena-mena aku tengok MV Sufian Suhaimi. Then aku realized dalam MV tu, Sufian tak salahkan EL 100%. Dan sebenarnya MV tu explain situasi dua insan tu.  1. SS pun memang jenis lelaki gatal kot. Dah ada awek, layan gak perempuan lain (dalam lagu tak sebut) tapi dalam MV, tunjuk ad...

Aku rasa kita patut berhenti berfikir begini: Tak perlu tengok kelebihan orang lain. Apa yang dia ada, tapi kita tak ada. Sebaliknya lihatlah apa yang kita ada tapi dia tak ada. Sebab setiap orang ada kelebihan dan kekurangan sendiri. Sebab, endingnya kita terus menerus membanding-bandingkan kehidupan kita. Terus menerus, 'suka' atau 'happy' atau 'puas hati' melihat orang lain tak ada apa yang kita ada, walaupun orang itu ada apa yang kita tak ada. Kira fikir seimbang begitu barangkali. Bagi aku, setelah berfikir panjang, ia macam sesuatu yang sakit. Sakit, sebab kita  'suka' atau 'happy' atau 'puas hati'    dengan kekurangan orang lain. Sebaliknya kita patut mula berfikir begini: Ya betul, kita tak ada apa yang dia ada. Itu rezeki dia. MashaAllah happy muka dia tu, macam kita pun terjangkit juga dengan kehappyan itu. Dan sebetulnya, apa yang kita ada tu dah cukup buat kita. Alhamdulillah. Kita tak ada apa yang orang lain ada, tapi yan...

Never in my life, Was this ' badge '... Belongs to me It was tough, It was hard It was always been too heavy But, I have chosen to bear all the weight Because, I've enjoyed it --  Regards, Siti Fatimah Khairiah M Amin credit to Korean Drama : While you were sleeping

Pre-Planning Yes, it was pre planned, maybe around Dec last year, but it was not what we meant to go. Well, we never thought in going anywhere. It just random. And we always, random! One of us said lets go. And one of us said, yes, let us all go. So one of us, did the booking. One of the reason WHY PENANG? because we've been there few times. And Penang always provide and offer good food, good atmosphere, good company, good accommodation, nice scenery and bring us out intact and enjoyed! Alhamdulillah, in other words, we always cherish our moment in Penang and it never disappoint us. At first, we were thinking, around that moment we will be off, we will have new transportation. Which fit the size of our family now. And my husband were thinking to bring his mother along. To cut it short - we were thinking of buying a new car. The plan was, having a great place to stay, and we mostly be staying at the hotel, kids will be enjoying the pools and slides. And for lunches and dinne...

Have you heard OJ Simpson kills his wife one day and he was jailed. Today, he is out and about.  At a point of his trial regarding the said killing, he was found, not guilty. But later, he got jailed. Though, he is a free man today! There is an article came out this morning regarding his interview on his wife death. And his words gives a goose bump to me. I think, this guys is just sick. He did wrong, but he thinks he did nothing wrong! 1 statement regarding his wife death during her funeral: 'It was tough, I just remember seeing her there and I still had so many feelings of - if you're angry with a person upon their death, if you're angry with someone about whatever is going on in your life, when they die, it's not like that anger disappears,' Simpson told Judith Regan back in 2006 when he taped the special. Read more:   http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-5479579/OJ-Simpson-angry-Nicole-Brown-wake.html#ixzz59EjNVeUt   Follow us:   @MailOnline on Twitter   ...

Pengenalan Selalu sangat aku ditakutkan dengan perkataan itu. Aku jenis, cepat memberi pandangan, padahal aku tak laluinya. Mungkin, pencerita ingat, aku terlebih tahu, padahal tak tahu. Ye aku tau benda tu tak mudah. Tapi itu dari persepsi aku. Belum disuntik emosi sebab aku tak benar-benar merasai. Wallahualam. Aku dapat bayangkan. Betapa sakit. Betapa rasa dikhianati. Betapa bohong dicurah pada janji-janji. Janji-janji lampau yang tidak pasti. Yang berjanji, hanya mencipta janji. Yang mendengar, percaya penuh pengharapan. Dan pabila hampa terjadi. Yang berjanji lupa akan janji. Yang mendengar terasa bahang penipuan.  Tetapi itu hanya bayangan. Walaupun ianya terjadi pada orang-orang yang aku sayang. Orang-orang yang aku hormati. Namun, aku tetap bukan dia yang benar-benar merasai. Yang aku rasakan tetap bukan perasaan yang sebenarnya.  Aku tak mampu berkata apa-apa pun. Tidak layak. Namun, aku terus mendengar, melihat, menyaksikan. Drama. Air mata dan kesedihan. Kehilangan. Fokus be...

I think she knew That i knew Something is wrong Of course she knew That i dont know What really is bothering her Well, i dont really know what it is But of course i know something is up She is currently recuperating Or could be still suffering Well, she always comes up the surface Being strong While being too strong Breaks her apart And knowing that, crushes me I hold myself from asking Because i feel that it could bleak her The last thing she wants is to expose it So how could i be the person to set if fourth? Shall i give her sometime? She will one day tell it all to me Tell me what it really is I put it on hold for the moment For a moment Please dear 'she' If you still not ready, please know that i will wait But if you need someone to talk to My all ears here for you to listen Until, that 'suffer' goes away Let you solidly be strong Let all the strength be with you Until, that chapter ends New chapter will introduce the new you The better you! -- Regards, Siti Fatima...