April 30, 2008

Before I Got Home on End April 2008...

Herm... Just have a feeling to write more today... I wish i had streamyx at home so i can do this more often...ekkeke I also wish i got a library at home so i could read more and have my own stashes of favorate books. Which i had wished for a long time...ekkekee.. I know i'm always silly....
Just before i end this day at the office..Just to remind myself a pile of work need to be done. huhuhu. but PHP Sessioning seems really far from my understanding and i don't know what to do.... :( ...Still my newly hobby of collecting shoes (i just had 3 of them which 1 had been broke by my weight...:p)..Here they are(without yang rosak tu la...:p):-

And the fact that i had a starting-to-go-messy cubicle with the book of my interest (GEISHA : just got it from the library) and the book of i'm suppose to-read-them-and-understand (PHP : B.O.R.I.N.G...) :-

And my past year as a girlfriend of a boy who thought i'm cute..muahahah..i know i'm cuter now...:p



And here is my cutie pie.....nyum2..... :-

I think he is really cute, dont you?? hehehehe

I Wonder...



In any posible thruth, u'll be dead in no time. Car crash might kill you. Or even the slightiest of a heart attact. Despite all of that, one thing for sure, every creature in this whole planet WILL DIE without any compromises....




Nothing will make you live longer than you posibly thought. Maybe if you are heathy then u might not be dead very soon. But still you can got yourself killed. Human makes mistakes don't they?




I wonder, what do they think when they are making cruel or evil things to other? Do they think they can live longer? They are all admitting about sinfull stuff but yet they seems not feeling guilty or anything. If they think they can stop the time from rolling, i think they have to think again because as i'm writting down my thoughts or you are reading it, time flows. Without any wait. Faithfully running from days to days, months to months, years to years or even decade. From the 1st century we are now at 21st century.




I dont know. It just runs through my head. As i'm thinking how to do this php sessioning as well as my hubby going to sleep out at the hospital tonight. Huhuhu. Tak best. Actually i wonder, what do other wife feels if they are in my shoes? My hubby got other brothers to sleep at the hospital but why don't they take turns? Why is it always to be him? I don't think it's fair! Besides, it's so hard to let him go off my sight, then to feel the cruelity of other of his siblings. Maybe they think we're still little family with less to think about. So let this little family sacrifice... Huarghhhhhh...........

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Regards,
Siti Fatimah Khairiah M Amin

April 11, 2008

It's Friday and I'm in a Blue Mood...



First thing i want to say which had made me write this blog...That i'm a bit jealous of people who are pregnant..I know, it's inappropriate...many is still waiting for pregnancy...I had and already have a baby boy....But i do...still very jealous...still very long for pregnancy..Which i dont know why....


I have 70% recover from previous pregnancy..Ugly belly had dissapear...only leave some extra body weight...Which i received due to eating disorder after pregnancy...Actually i alredy get my normal weight before pregnancy..But gain back the weight as i cant stop eating......hehehe.....SO i'm actually so very ready to be pregnant again! But then again...I know i can;t afford for it yet...since i can't still adapt myself to manage a spoiled husband and a very depentfull son.......I cant cook when my son is screaming for my attention..And i cant hug my son since there's load of laundry yet to be processed....I cant do nothing if sindarella is on tv as well as fara...muahahahaha...i need more time.....and i can't bare myself from being very tired yet there's someone blaming me because he is very tired...I just can't take this situation by itself enough for me to spare time for another kid......But i really do want to have more kids...i just love kids..i don;t know why...i wish i am a housewife..i wish i can quit my job.....but i like this job..i can't live without doing programming.........a little bit will help me so much.......ok maybe i need to look at my work and forget about everything...


forget about this Friday in Blues....forget about last night...forget about what will not happen but should have happenned for tomorow...forget about everything...forget about what my heart is suffering on...just forget about it.....be someone without anything personal to think about...be a stone or a crashed tomato,potato or even carrot....i don't understand the crap blowing out of me right now..but i know for sure that i had a lot to do and a lot of thins to settle.......so goodbye blog..see you again next seoson when i have another mood breakdown again...so there....
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Regards,
Siti Fatimah Khairiah M Amin