Life Cycle of Me

I've been married to him for almost 2 years and 3 years before that i was becoupled with him. Still, god knows who he is and i can hardly understand his behaviour. Not to say that i am not thankful for what i have, but just to remind myself that relationship is more than what i think it is. It comes with respect, trust, confidence, tolerance and more.. Last night after performing the prayer with my husband, he hug me, i know it is not suitable for me to told the whole world about this, but still, i'm telling. I just couldn't control myself. I am falling to his embrace and my stand towards him that moment drastically changed. I realize he will change back to his normal attitude that made me suffer. Again this is not i'm not being thankful but as i am a woman to a man, there is something i need to feed my satisfaction. That, i will talk about later i guess. But most important is, he changed the way he used to just to show me how much he cares for me and how much he love m

Hmm.. Life is tough i figured when things goes by beyond my control... I couldn't handle some of the things.. I'm not superwoman or bionic woman.. Yet i know somebody who is, but i'm just not them and i can't be like them.. I tried and tried but failed to be binoc or biowon -which is bionic woman..So what i can do is helplessly cried and cried.. I know is not good and hopeless but that is all i can do.........I have 24 hours a day 60 minutes per hour and 60 seconds per minute like everyone else..I got 2 hands and 2 legs, all in one body...I can go i place at a time...I can do 1 thing at a time...Everything needs to be finished and need to perfectly done...Everyone need to be cherish and need to be entertained...I can't do all?! Everyone need to take their turn....   But life does go very fast and time run so fast i can barely finish up everything..That laundry need to be folded..That dishes need to be washed....The floor not swept yet...The died lizard not cleaned