February 28, 2008

Anak Mama Comel Sayang...

Dukacita dimaklumkan anak mama kene cirit birit pada 23/2/2008 hingga hari ini.... Huhu..tp malam tadi najis Firdaus dah pekat mcm biasa la. Die pn dh kuat mkn balik kuat nyusu balik...Dah bagi nenen paksa mama bangun bancuh susu lagi...Huhuhu..Takpe2 tu namanya untuk membesarkan body... Tapi nampak seksa jgk la die meneguk susu dari botol...Tekak tak brape ok lagi kut kadang2 nmpk mcm nk muntah balik...Tapi alhamdulillah dh tak muntah dh. Mama bekalkan biskut, nestum, bubur suma habis... Tak tau la anak mama ni mkn cemana tak dpt kubayangkan. Tapi smlm kt rumah nenek mkn lagi. Ish ish.. Pstu mlm tadi dh susah tido sebab kenyang sgt kot. Slalu dlm kul 3 bangun bukak mulut then tdo balik dlm masa 2 3 menet je.. Ni over 1 hour taknak tdo gk.. Siap panggil2 ibu ibu ibu.... Sampai mama tak tahan... Mama tros ugut...Heyy firdaus ni nk kene rotan ye.. Kekekekeeke.... tak pasal2 kene ejek ngn abah......Mama ke Ibu ek? Ntahh... Firdaus degil gk dok paggil ibu..Mama pn degil nk mama gk..Hahaha..tgk la nanti bila firdaus dh betul2 bole ckp.....

Aritu lagi best..abah dok main2 tanya2... Ni anak sapa ni...Anak sapa ni...Ni sapa ni...Abah sapa ni....Pstu Firdaus slumber je ckp.. AaKuuu...Hahahaha..mcm dgr suara antu abah... Terkejut..Maybe la kebetulan kn...But it still nice.....:)

Tapi mama tak tahan betul la...Firdaus manjaa sgt sejak cirit birit nih..Nak mama dukung je...Jangan la macam tu sgt ek sayang..Mama nk buat kerja lain ni..Firdaus be a good boy ok......cayang sgt........

Mama doakan firdaus mkn byk isap susu banyak Supaya dapat membesar dgn kuat dan sehat...Sementara mama nye susu ada lagi ni bole la firdaus gantung malam2.. Nanti dh takde sbelum tdo isap susu dlu jgn kaco mama nk tdo ye..Kikikiki...

Okla tu je.....nk update...daaaaa
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Regards,
Siti Fatimah Khairiah M Amin

February 15, 2008

Memoirs of Gheishas............

A long dot for a long paused.......

I was very lucky... in my life I AM very lucky...Alhamdulillah......

when i was just a form 1 student.. there was a car...stopped next to me when i was waiting for my bus to school..and a man came out telling me to get in the car....I manage to avoid him and went to my friend's house..........

i was being a girlfriend via internet....to a person whom now calling our relationship - nothing! i was so hurt when he said he don't want me anymore...i wasn't even thinking how my life could have changed if i....well...we met and he did approach me on being his bed partner!! no kidding...but i was so blur..or maybe innocent...i'm just not into it yet that time....well am i lucky? or maybe god had helped me??

when i was on my practical..there was a guy...so keen to be my partner...i wasn't thinking anything..but to think again...how social his life was...and how nerdy and unattractive i was....his intentions could be vary and i was just so lucky to not liking him and be his partner...or maybe social partner...just a step from my decision could ruin mylife....


i was just a step of being a BOHSIA or what people call it nowadays?...I was just a step of being a USELESS WOMAN...woman who lost her everything......virginity...trust from her own family......education's road trip...carrier....and LIFE!.... Yes, people need to admit it......woman's life is all about BEING A VIRGIN and EDUCATION...and CARRIER......maybe woman today are different..but i just dont see it.....ok..if u are a call-girl and u have a degree...Your situation could be better...maybe?

But look at woman who are nothing...they have no degree..their husband left them.....they have no income...no job suit them...they don't cook well...they don't know how to sew....THEY ARE NOT VIRGIN anymore when they reach 15 16 or even 18......Nobody wants them! maybe they had stepped on the wrong path...and suddently, yes, they are WHORES...they have no standards or even human rights!!!!! What is this? I'm not talking about woman who came from the upper level community..who manage to have money but still giving their body to everyone...being that whore i'm not interested...but being someone who is poor.........who just can't afford to make mistakes......and end up being a Sexual Workers and being below the level of a human being........................

I cant take it....i dont knw if i can help out......When i step inside the Sexual Worker House....When i saw a lady making a bottle of milk...I'm picturing myself..making a bottle of milk for my son.......And the lady went to her baby son...who is very cute.....a caucassion face-look-a-like...gave him what he need...The baby is born.....Being a son of a BITCH....A bitch who is doing wrong to her life......How can the lady turn back time? HOW can we help out? Yes, she is very dirty to our eyes.......She is doing sinfull thing to her life...or maybe spreading HIV to our husbands.....and to us! But can we forgive ourselves....to see the baby..being ignored...being hate by US? What if the baby is our own...What do we feel to have a baby that is being hate by the community...Just because the baby could have had HIV too? I was crying in my heart....I missed the baby...I wish to see him again and this time i would like to hug him.....I even feel like i want to take him and take care of him as my own child......I want him to be loved....And adored.......

Get out people.....Helping out doesn;t mean we are accepting the sinfull agenda....Doesn;t mean we are forgiving it easyly......But at least open up our mind....Give your smile at least...a warm hug to them...They are people too......They have heart too....We are just so damn lucky PEOPLE!!! We could have slipped too and be one of them!!! God just love us more i guess....If we just lend a little of our love to them...there are just nothing to loose......just open up....have some respect....get up to senses...and have some humanitarian feelings.....STOP OURSELVES from being A BITCH ourselves...!!!!
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Regards,
Siti Fatimah Khairiah M Amin

February 11, 2008

C.U.C.I

kThis is suppose to be a review on film --> CUCI. Tapi kalu jadi lain sorry la ek..ehehehe

I was watching it lastweek with hubby. Above all the obstacles we finally broke it and watch a movie together....ehehe... Firdaus was being taken care by his grandUMI.... and we were watching maghrib-movie....sinfull i know..ehehehe

i was 1/2 hour in the movie without hubby. Everybody was like with their group of friends or couples or families..I was like ALONE and the light started to shut-off and the movie played without waiting for anybody......Huwaaa..kesian hubby.......about 25minutes jugak la he missed out the story......We were expecting not more than 10minutes of missed out..Because adik jual tiket tu kate.....Around 730 la baru dorg play the movie...So smpat la hubby masuk lmbt and smayang dlu...Turn out to be...the movie played on 720...maghrib pulak 727...hemm....kesian hubby...tu je la aku ckp dlm hati..

ok enuff of the dramatic stuff..lets talk cuci now..eheheh

mula2 cite tu punya opening...mengenai 4 org anak yatim yang takde ibu bapa dibela oleh sorg pompuan...mak ape ntah dorg panggil.....tp mmg hepi la dorg..berkawan2...pstu pompuan tu plak syg kt dorg.....

aku tak igt sgt nama2...tp sorg tu gayat....sorg tu gemuk+bercita2 tinggi - afdlin aa tu....sorg tu very the lurus bendul and calculative - hans....sorg lg tu awie....mcm interupted sket aku tak tau ape die nye keistemewaan ade significantly who is he? masa kecik aa..tp time besar2..die mcm bodo2 sket awie ni..pstu pandai msk...and mcm pembersih sket...

pstu bile dh besar...dorg masuk pertandingan cuci bangunan terpantas..pstu dpt kontrak cuci klcc...

well aku too carried away by the watak2 rather than the story line...because it was said....main point cite ni is about persahabatan....tp i tried to find about the conection...seems like i totally lost it...mmg....nampk dorg having so much fun doing this movie..too slumberess...but a the peak points...masa tgh tegang or gaduh....they seems to loss everything..no connection beyond that...i dont know why they seems to keep losing their main point...

kadang2 klaka jugak.....awie la byk main peranan...macam afdlin he's really serious....lawak pn very sacartic and menyindir...tp klaka jgk la.....hans pulak very the blur and very the lurus......ac...die ni slumber sgt...ape die ckp tu very hot and people tend to kecik ati.....memula tu ok la..tp lama2 tu mcm eh sakit jgk apa mamat ni ckp..tp lepas tu mcm takde apa2 to make up to what he said....kwn2 pn nampak la terasa..tp nothing is done to make it all up...so mcm ...really kwn baik kene mcm ni ke.....masalahnya mcm he meant all his words tau..bkn mcm lawak lg dh..contoh mcm...kau ni kenapa bodoh sgt....??....or...kau ni masak kambing rasa ayam..masak ayam rasa kambing.....ermmm....tak besttt..maybe aku ni too emotional to accept all of that kot....

awie plak...die mcm tak amik port sgt pe org ckp....die really mcm ikot the flow.....pstu kawan2 die buat koto..die bersih kan without much spoken from his mouth..die la masak.....pstu ckp2 die very entertaining and pleasantly spoken.....aku tak tau la..aku tak minat awie ni blakon sembilu2 dlu tu...nyampah aku...tp this guy..i think he got talent bringing fun acts....kalu bg die jadi hero mungkin agak hancur kot..ehehe...hans pulak masa die blakon kabhi kushi kabhi gam...die mcm best giler..he made me cried u know.....tp kalu lawak2 ni hancur la beb die tu...hans, do u realise that ur not funny??? hehehe.....ac plak..die ni kene kawal sket la..too slumberess pn not good jgk i guess...ehehee

tp for all the trouble it cause kitorg laki bini..this story ok la....very the ringan.......nmpk la dorg 4 org tu mmg kawan baik......tp kalu u tak tau diorg tu kawan baik...u might not think this story really strong enough to draw attention.....pastu make up so very the berterabur.....erra lg la..dgn wig die yg nampak wig tuh...ummi aida very natural la..aku ase die makeup sendiri tu..ekekeke..tp rimas la tgk die pakai bj kurung jee....eh skang ni mana ada minah kampung sgt lagik cmtu...nk pakai pn berpada2 la kot..ehehehehe....ni nk gi uruskan pertandingan pn bj kurung.go basuh kete pakai bj kurung....eishhh rimasshh laa..hihihi......mcm ida nerina, pak rahim, harith iskandar...their appearance very powerfull la...really enhance the film.......tak lupe jgk my fav, rusdi, ako, shanie...best best best......eheehhee

aku ni mcm review..tp lebih kepada perincian kecil..the whole story aku dh malas nk cite dh..sbb tgk benda kecik2 je..ekekekeke..takpela..nk tau tgk sendiri...SOKONG LA MOVIE KITA..kalu bkn kita yg sokong..sape lagi????!!!.........aku ase movie mat saleh skang pn hampeh die bole tahan gk..balik2 dok ulang benda yg sama....at least seeing ur own movie..u r viewing different thing..even u can jog up ur talent in being a critics...ekekekeke.....

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Regards,
Siti Fatimah Khairiah M Amin