Life Cycle of Me

Slamat Hari rayer sumer...ampunkan la salah silap aku slame korg kenal aku.....aku tau aku ni jahat....ati busuk..........aku harap korg maaf kan aku ye.....hehehehe slamat berhari raya sumer.......smoga happy disamping keluarga dan sanak saudara......:D

First of all happy ramadhan for everybody. This ramadhan, i think we have heard more sad things than before. The loss of known people that we know. I am not quite remembering the names, but the latest one, is the wife of our current prime minister. While we were laughing and enjoying our break fast, someone out there is in grief. The most saddest bereavement that i have read was, the death of 8 years old girl who was trapped inside a burning house while her parents were out for work. She was fast assleep when neighbours shouting for her and her brother to save their life. And fire was wildly burning their home. Nothing can be done. Her brother failed to save her as she was falling to the ground while running away. The air was stiff and her brother failed to find her and she was found burned after the fireman manage to put away the flames. it was a heartbreaking chronicle, but it was faith. I remember lossing my grandmother long time ago. I was 10 that time. I couldnt understand why m...

You are Brown Panther, who is gentle, kind, warm and friendly. You don't get influenced by people around you, and can keep your own pace of doing. You have high self-esteem, and are person of strong will. Although you really are a kind person, people regard you rather obstinate(Stubborn) ; this is because you are not very good at expressing yourself. If you can make the others know this weakness, you will certainly be more trusted. You dislike being restrained, and wish to stay and act freely. You are an independent person, and do not mind being alone. You will be successful by going into a professionalcareer. You have extremely high ideals, and rich sensitivity . You can not stand compromise, and therefore, may struggle between reality and ideals . You are a person who can grow to become a greater person by overcoming many failures and difficulties, so don't grave over your little mistakes. It is sometimes important to have a big heart and take a "so-what "attitude...

After 10 days, i feel like writting again today. I'm so lost...so out of the mood for anything....i cant feel my soul...Where is it?.....Something is not right.....I dont know wht.....If they say, i dont belong into this field i'm taking......So where do i belong? I know i'm the only one who can answer the question...silly la if i even try to ask anybody else kan. But that is the case, I DONT KNOW lah...heehehe......... My head felt heavy...The easy job i can do for 2 minutes became 2 hours or now i can say, more than 2 days...Hahahah.....Ramadhan tingy ke? I dont think so. Maybe i slept too much kot. After 11pm I went to sleep. Then 430 i wake up to help my mother prepare the dishes. After 6ooam i went back to sleep and wake up at 730. And then i felt this big head ache in my head. Owwww...Why is it have to be working days.....hehehe Even though i dont want to wake up, but i kept dreaming weird dreams lately. Even if i want to sleep more, but myself personally cant take it...

I just feel like writting in english today..... Hehe. My life doesnt have anything to be proud of. I'm just nothing for anybody to look up for. But i think, i got something in life that i should appreciate and love. For a reason, these things gave meaning to my life. Life wasnt about getting something and live happily ever after with it. But for me, as for my case, life is more into achieving something with someone i love and care. To achieve that, what i need is to stand on my own feet, bravely, patiently and strongly. Which is not who i am at the first place. I was born, spoiled. My parents lead my way all the time. They helped me up all the way. And when there is a chance for me to be on my own, i take it too hard. I dont know if i could make it right most of the time. My expirience, i did failed to nailed my future. Hehe. I got here. I gain trust from everybody. But actually i have nothing. And i could break and fall anytime. Trying as hard to maintain it, hurts me so much. So ...