Life Cycle of Me

I just have nothing to say about it....but this is not what i ask for or hope.....i just curiouse why i didnt encounter it....doesnt mean that i want it to happen........ok i do have something to say..... sometimes, you feel like god think you are to weak to accept his challege....and there he gave you to face it....pace up and be standing......though you couldnt stop yourself from falling....from feeling the hurts...i does hurt.....for a simplest thing...it does.................. it is not that you are not strong...it is just you are not aware of it.....you are so confident that it will not happen....but what had happened, happens....sometimes all the time...... you can never trust anyone to be they way you want them to be.........when you need them.....you can never expect them to stay...the way the always makes you smile.... this cries today is not forever...i can promise myself this.....i know i'm not that weak.....and i know where i stand today......i can put up my own life......

What is the meaning of 'life'? What is the meaning of having someone to love, and be loved by someone? What is the meaning of waking up and think of the good side of life? What is the meaning of waking up in the midst of hardtimes, having a 'pang' of life, which make the eyes of yours open? Life of life, why is it so hard to understand? Sometimes you laugh, sometimes you just feel like flying, but sometimes, you just feel like loosing. Like someone dump you somewhere. You feel lost, unbearable feeling that just put tears on your eyes. That is life baby. Something that is jeopardising inside your heart, is life. I like talking about life. I like to look at myself, compare me with others and talk about life to myself. I know i'm not good. Sometimes i got to be so scared, that everybody will leave me, because i know i have something not right with my attitude. I composed my life based on other people perspective, which i shouldnt be. I am big enough to make my own desi...

Huargh...Aku takdak mood sangat arini........bosan lak tu....... keje aku nk di ikotkan...tak complete lg laa......tp tak tau nk complete kan camana..........ntah laa......is it the end of my carier...muahahaha..tak dela...just seriousely...tak tau nk buat ape skang ni.....so aku just browing around..carik la ape2 yg berkaitan ngn keje aku nih..kot2 aku bole perpikiran lebih terbuka... tgk gaya aku mmg kene bgnkan mende ni sorg3....huhuhu..bos tak muncol2 pon...pening pale aku nk pikior...pe la jadah nye mende ni works.....if i know wht to do.... terlambat utk piki carik keje lain.....aku dh bgtau diri aku....to stay keje ni wlau ape pon terjadik...cube setia sket sitiii.........kalu company ni bankrupt ke ape..br la pikior nk carik keje lain...mainpoint nye nk carik pengalaman wat coding...huhhuhuhu.....kalu dpt buat mmg besst...besh2...........berangan lg aku ni...hik hik hik ngantok..malas sunggoh nk bekerja arini...sbb tak mkn pg pon ade kot..........malas laa nk gi mkn....mkn tgha...

Hello again to my simply unresistable but complicated life. Err as in thinking. I do think unacceptably complicated and somewhat people see it as "negative". I know, i am. But here is what i have been thinking this morning.......... i have been sitting in front of my office(i dont have keys yet), looking, thinking of my assignment(which i still thinking how to go about it). one moment, a girl, emm no, a guy to be exact, a guy who wears girls cloths. I would go for 'he' so we will not be confused. He wears long pants and nice-not-too-tight t-shirt. And what surprice me(i cant never stop my eyes from looking), he dont have the thing that guys always have(which what give me the idea what to write about today). You know, the guy thing-i never know what it is called in english. He probably did a surgery to remove it from his body. So now, he is basicly a woman. As he move away. Not really very quickly. This weird thing does not gain that much attention from people nowadays...