Life Cycle of Me

Smlm byk tul bende terjadi...Ntah la aku ni betul ke tak betul.....Pagi2 dpt call dr big boss....   "Fatimah, yesterday when i went back, i saw u didn't keep the projector and laptop inside..It was left in the meeting room just like that...."   I blurted out for a moment? Was i suppose to be the owner of those mistake? I was just a backup.. Nobody tells me anything...I thought i has been taken care of..If i were the person who took everything and put it where i was to be on the meeting, then i suppose, it is really me to be blame....I dont know whether i suppose to be mad back or just listen.....I was really shocked and dumb-silent....   "If we lost those thing, you will be surcharge on your salary...I will not take the resposibility...It it yours!"   Again, only "I'm sorry Puan" came out of my mouth...At this point i thought..maybe i was wrong...All of the meeting comittee were outsiders..Only me, the big bos and another...

I am frustrated early in the morning...later i was amazed by how people interact with their surroundings......They know just what to say or act...It was like something slipping very instant from their mind and they were just blowing it out...Very easy...I imagine myself trying to do that such....I think, things would not be the same....I will say something i didnt mean to....I would be making fun out of myself....I feel so low and unmatured...I have 4 years of working expirience and here i am....i feel nothing out of me!!!   I want to excell like last time.....I want to show my brighter side...I want to be awarded by my ability....I cant wait to know what is my biggest skill..what is my talent????.......huhuhuhuu   Please god...Lead me my truthfull way......amin... -- Regards, Siti Fatimah Khairiah M Amin

Firdaus memang bese la badan panas... Tp takdela merengek... Mama yg risau2, bawak gi klinik, dokter kate tak demam.... Tak pernah demam wpn lepas kene injek... Power la anak mama ni... Skali 1 mlm di malam jumaat.. Hohoho... Mama mendapati diri mama tidak dpt tido walau 1 sen pon... Hehehe... Sebab nya firdaus mcm lapa.. Mama bg susu badan firdaus marah.. Mama bagi botol.. Tuka2 puting 2 3 kali firdaus nyusu sikit je... Pstu kepala panass manjang.. Besenye kalu panas tu kejap tu sejuk balik.. Ni tak surut2... Mama risauuuu gilerr.. Huhuhuu...... Pstu pg tu gi klinik bole lak dokter tak dtg lg... Pstu nenek yg bawak gi klinik.. Tgk2 doktor kate anak mama demammmmm... Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaa...tak penah2 ni la 1st time dpt antibiotik...........Sbb dokter kate tekak Firdaus merah... Ptt la nangis suara serak... Huhuhuhu......   Pstu next night... Wpn mkn ubat..still anak mama takleh tdo mlm..Sejuk kot ek...Nk tdo dlm pelukan mama.. Huhuhuhuhu.. Cian die...Menggeletek2 bile mama bg makan u...

Huhuhu...cedih nya mama......Smlm mama tak ase cedih lg...sbb mama balik keje je..anak mama tdo...pstu bgn2 nmpk mama tros senyum2...gelak2...sambil menetek.....wpn mcm nak taknak je menetek....tp tgk muka anak mama ceria mama hepi la jgk.....Skali nenek bgtau...anak mama baru lepas jatuh drpd kerusi......huhuhuhuhuhu....tu la dh bergolek dh anak mama..tak brape pandai lg..grabbing2 pn malas2 lg..bole sbenanye..tp anak mama ni mcm malas2 sket la mama tgk....die lg suke mama bagi die...huhuhu...tp bergolek laju plak die........yela..mgkin anak mama mcm tak brape berani lagi kut.......takpelaa..janji Firdaus membesar ngn sehat ye sayang...   Pastu malam tadi firdaus nk tdo peluk mama...slalu mama peluk firdaus bangun..ni dh kene peluk br la firdaus tdo..mama lepas je firdaus bangun....cedih mama..pstu pg tadi mama rasa kepala..demam pulak...huhuhu..ciannya anak mama.......   mama tak saba nk balik nk jmpe firdaus...mama harap firdaus dh baik demam...nnti mama bg mkn ubat lg ...