Life Cycle of Me

Another 7 hari before birthday Ammar. Celebration with friends on 14.11 ni kat sekolah kebangsaan. So ok la tu, mama bg kek 1.  Malam td, lepas dinner kt luar, balik rumah, mama terus naik atas, proses baju nak gosok. Nak pastikan gosok semua, so senang nk menghadapi hari2 mendatang. Washing Machine masuk bengkel. Tak rosak teruk, tapi sebelum teruk, abah decide hantar bengkel. Macam kereta jugak ek washing machine nih huhuhhu. Sebenarnya washing machine ni sgt reliable, tapi capacity dia yang tak reliable untuk menampung keluarga kami. I told you so En. Shahrun Hisam! We need bigger loads! Tapi tak apa, kita cuba fix in, di samping, pelan nak tambah anak terpaksa digugurkan. Kesian machine tuh. Senak weih! Hahahahaha.... So as for now, Abah akan ke laundy mate 2 hari sekali. Datang weekend, 4 loads of baju! RM20 tukar coins pun tak ckp. *sigh*.... SO, sebenarnya nak cerita malam tadi. Semua orang dah ready masuk tidur, tiba-tiba Aisha shouted out. NAK NUGGET! Aisha lapar at 10.45pm!. ...

"And my mother always says -... sometimes the wrong train can take you to the right station" I remember a day of my life. I was feeling a life again. Somebody asked me out. But we have friend zoned each other. Its just that, im out. Instead of feeling blurry, lonely myself. I was at that time, a saddy sappy girl.  If you ask me now, i would say, it was a wrong train that i took. I should not have left my house. It was weird, i;m a hijab gal. I should not have let myself went about that wild. And be wild. I called that wild, even though it is not. Just a night out. With friends. Which i do not particularly very close to. We are classmates yes, but we were not that close..  I was looking for my identity. As if, i did not have any. And to be wild, out and about. Mingle and talk and have friends... I was so lonely, i succumbed to that particular interest. But i was lost. That friend who asked me out left me. To that place, where i dont feel welcome. He was there, with me, at that...

Cak? heheheh.. Perjalanan Ramadhan setakat ini, Alhamdulillah, lancar. Tidaklah sempurna tetapi lancar. Tak perlu sempurna andai yang sederhana itu telah memadai. Ewah. Hehehe. Dua hari sebelum Ramadhan, kami ambil keputusan untuk bercuti sekejap di Lumut, Perak. Kami bercadang bawa umi dan ayah aku sekali. Suami baru je selesai satu task yang agak memeningkan kepala dia. Well, kepeningan tu tak habis lagi, tapi nampak macam he needed a short break so much. So off we went. It was a nice hotel. Quite remote from the main land - not an island though. As usual, the main essentials for the kids - a pool. We made a quick stop to meet his mother at Hospital Teluk Intan. She is hospitalized for an imbalanced diabetic readings. She is loosing her appetite and somehow still not eating well. Up until now, it has been 5days in the hospital and days before with eating disorder. We still don't know the real diagnosis, still waiting and things not progressing very well. Well, but we're still...

Makin lama aku tengok cerita-cerita Korea ni, baik Filem atau Kisah Bersiri, makin mengingatkan aku minat aku menulis. Aku memang dari dulu suka menulis, tapi tak serius. I'd write off my minds. Tak kisah apa aku fikir, aku tulis je. Panjang lebar. With lots of rojak, like right now, short forms and many other handicaps. Banyak kekurangan. Which is too far from being a good writer, which someone will appreciate my writings. Memang jauh la kan nak ke situ. Tapi makin lama aku tengok cerita-cerita Korea ni. Makin macam rasa, sedap nya kalau aku dapat menulis sesuatu yang beneficial. Sesuatu yang will be appreciated. Bukan apa, ada perbezaan dari sudut genre cerita-cerita garapan Korea dan Melayu. Aku cakap melayu sebab aku jarang tertengok garapan indian or chinese di Malaysia. By the way, garapan Korea lebih specifik, fokus dan teknikal. Ada cinta, ada romantik dan ada lucu, tapi ada juga fakta-fakta teknikal. Contoh kalau kisah pilot. Bukan sekadar pergi balik airport, pakai ...

Mama cuti sejak 1 Mac 2019 haritu sebab Aisha kena Chicken Pox. Smpailah semalam 7 Mac 2019. So today, 8 Mac 2019, Aisha lepak dengan abah. 1. Hantar mama pi kerja dan breakfast dengan mama 2. Kemas rumah, spring cleaning dan cuci kereta 3. Pi ikut abah Solat Jumaat 4. Cuci gigi 5. Potong Rambut