Life Cycle of Me

2nd week of schooling.. My children has begun to develop such an interesting things this week, and it just Tuesday. I start sending them to read Al Quran to an Ustaz house. So Hafiy deny my act at first by saying, he needs me to teach him, not anyone else. He told me his fears, that his not able to do it. I can feel it, even though he doesn't tell, he is ashamed of himself, he feels handicapped cause he couldn't read well. I said, this is just the beginning, the Ustaz will teach you. InsyaAllah.  Later that (last) night, he finally said. Ok mama, i think i need this class. I will attend next class. I think, he somehow realized that he needs the class. So that touched me.  And Ammar, he wants to join the class. He cried all the way home after sending his brothers, to be in the class with his brothers. I cant wait for him to be 4 years old to sent him to that class as well..InsyaAllah nextyear. And this morning, when i was arranging Firdaus's books for school. I found a note ...

Mlm sblm kejadian. Stokin ada.sampin ada.songkok ada..tie ada.. Kasut ckp? Beg skolah, mana? Itu la mak bapak firdaus. Kitrog mmg sengal. Bkn memang shj Malah tersangat huhu.. Psl beg skolah pn bole jd bahan nk bertekak.. Tp xdela tahap bergaduh lg. Kalau sorg demam dan sorg kene keje. Yg tu xyah punca. Tros gadoh wakakaka.. U jgn ckp i je. U pn sama ok.. Hihihi... Beg skolah firdaus pakai yg last year punye je.. Knowing us, xbli yg branded pn.. N by 6 month pakai dh berterabur zip kemana.. Tali kemana. So tgu masa je beg2 tu... Tp mcm hantar firdaus td..tgk kengkwn pakai beg br.. I was touched gk.. Tp hide dr firdaus..and tgk dia pn biasa je.. For him.. Mmg mcm tu. Kalau beg ok lg. Pakai jela..sgt redha anak aku..touchig makk sob sob.. I remember when it was me... I was crying outloud okkk asking my oarents to buy me nw bag... I dun care... Gj dh masuk ke blom..but because i was like that.. And i think en.shahrun was being a spoil brat himself.. We tend to do the opposite for o...

First of all, aku tak tulis ni dengan claim diri aku 100% memahami lelaki. In fact, im always still n be learning myself. Seriously, dh lebih 10 tahun, kenal, rapat, sayang, duduk sekali dengan En. Shahrun, aku still belajar pasal perangai dia. Still ada benda yang aku tak faham. Sebagai manusia biasa, aku sentiasa salah bajet. Sentiasa salah telahan. Tapi Alhamdulillah, Allah swt masih lindungi relationship aku dan En. Shahrun. Doa, of cos, sentiasa doa. Agar perhubungan kami sampai akhir hayat kami. Dan kami dpt bertemu di Akhirat kelak. Amin.....   Aku tahu, even dah tua nanti, aku dan En. Shahrun (kalau kami masih hidup), tak mungkin akan terselamat. Ujian Allah swt itu sentiasa dtg. Even dh tak fikir anak. Even dh pencen, akan ada susur galur yang dtg. Aku tengok sendiri parents aku, kdg2 kawan2 lain cerita pasal parents diorg, parents in law aku. Kesimpulannya, ujian dari Allah swt tu tanda dia sayang kita and akan sentiasa ADA!   So, Ya Allah, dengan menulis pasal ni, ak...