Life Cycle of Me

 The long overdue Pulau Tioman. We planned it for Mac 2021. Found an affordable place, next to the beach, Seaview and so on. But couldn't, cause of the PKP.  Until the government release the state restrictions, so off we went! We went to PD on the 15th. Because i have to attend a Seminar. Stayed there for 2 nights. On the 2nd night, on the 17th, we check out and drive to Tg Gemok, Rompin, Pahang. Arrived at 5am. Couple of short stops to sleep. Me not driving. First few stop until around 3am I managed not to sleep. Accompanying my husband. But suddenly I buzzed off and its 5am and we safely reached Tg Gemok hehehe. 6am we went for Subuh's Prayer at nearby Mosque. Wait outside Jetty there for a while, bought some food. 730am. We went inside Jetty area. Parked our car, registered and did saliva test for 5 of us except Aisha. All negative. Alhamdulillah and wait inside until time for Ferry to Pulau Tioman. Had a simple breakfast. Karipap and waffles. The kids were behaving just fi...

 Aku pernah kawan dengan seorang warga Palestine yang lari dari negara sendiri sebab tak mahu perang. Sampai dah lebih 20 tahun tak jumpa, aku sendiri tak tau dia kat mana. Mungkin dah takde kat dalam dunia yang fana ni. Kat tepi sekolah aku dulu, ada sekeluarga Palestine yang duduk di masjid. Mulanya orang nak menolong. Lepas tu dia jadikan barang dan peralatan kat masjid tu macam barang milik keluarga dia pula. Buat kotor. Dan tak hormat waktu solat. Sedangkan dia dalam masjid tu. Orang lain solat, dia bergelak tawa tengok tv satu keluarga. Not nice la kan. Walau pun ramai je orang Malaysia berdekah2 time masuk waktu. So diorang decide relocate the whole fam. Which aku pun tak tahu kat mana. Well, what i can say. Palestinians just like us. Human. At hard times, we look bad. At good times, we look bad too. Life kot? Dunno! But komen ni aku tak boleh blah. Kau terlalu immersed dalam kehidupan orang kat sana, sampai kau lupa struggles orang kat sini.  1.  Well i have to di...

  1.  As a natural remedy for body odor, use Tea Tree oil as a natural deodorant by  applying 2 drops directly to your underarms after showering to stave off body odor . Be sure to wait about 10 minutes after getting out of the shower, especially if you just shaved, so that your pores can close before applying the oil. 2.  Tea tree oil contains compounds that fight bacteria responsible for body odor. It  can be used to make a safe and effective deodorant . 3.  Tea tree oil is one of the best remedies to combat underarm odor. Its astringent and antimicrobial properties help minimize the pore in your underarms and fight the odor-causing bacteria in the area.  Dip a cotton ball in it  and apply it on your underarms. 4. Q & A Q:   For years, I suffered with the embarrassing problem of body odor. No matter what deodorant I tried, I still seemed to, well, stink. Then one day, I read about the many benefits of tea tree oil and decided to see if...

Update : Done 2nd Dos on 2nd of August 2021. So, whilst updating this, i am already COMPLETED the vaccination - which is 14 days passed my 2nd dose. Alhamdulillah. Lets just hope i will not catch the virus so i can protect my loved ones who are unable to get vaccinated. InsyaAllah Amin.. ________________________________________________________________________ Time: 12:30pm Date : 31 Mei 2021 Battle 1st batch untuk 200k sumthing AZ dulu aku ragu-ragu juga nak ambil. Tapi lepas sembang dengan kawan-kawan, diorg make a point, Kalau tak vaksin, infected dengan virus C19 lebih tinggi percentage untuk mati dari Kalau amik vaksin. Memang ada yang mati, tapi kalau compare percentage dia sangat rendah compared to kalau mati sebab infected. Tu satu hal. Satu hal lagi 2021 ni, C19 ni macam terlebih sudah mutasi nya. Senang to be infected-airborne, dan kalau kena, walaupun mungkin tak mati, severity sangatlah menakutkan. Ada yang survived tapi lepas tu ada masalah pernafasan. Ada yang survived tap...

 As if i'm waiting for someone to save me My heart was so lonely As if i'm just a point people use to be laugh at They were looking down on me As least that was i thought Physically, i could be smilling But i'm just torn inside They might heard of me laughing But i'm just broken pieces they never see I know these loneliness killing me  But there was nothing i could do I'm like having two me One who was happy and lively The other just cried in her sleep I might be talking nonsense I might be that spiteful talk person They might hurt by my words I'm just torn, I don't know what i am And i know, it's not the right reason

Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck Kisah pasal seorang lelaki berketurunan Minangkabau dari bapanya. Namun bapanya telah berkahwin dengan wanita dari keturunan lain. Telah terbuang. Merantau dan hidup jauh di sebuah tempat bernama Mengkasar. Lelaki itu bernama Zainuddin. Sejak kecilnya Zainuddin dibela oleh seseorang bernama Mak Base, kerana saat dia masih bayi, ibunya meninggal. Kemudian masih dalam lingkungan 5 ke 6 tahun ayahnya yang dari Minangkabau itu pula meninggal. Tapi dia beruntung kerana Mak Base baik. Dan dia dibela dan dibesarkan dengan baik. Cukup belanja walau tak mewah. Setelah besarnya, dia teringin nak kembali ke tempat asal ayahnya. Tertarik dengan keindahan-keindahan alam yang ayah dia ceritakan mengenai tempat asal ayahnya iaitu di Batipuh, Pasir Panjang. Sebuah kawasan kampung. Kalau ikut penceritaan, ada Gunung Merapi. Area situ la kiranya. Memang lawa. Ayahnya suruh balik ke situ, sebab nak suruh mengaji, belajar agama, jadi golongan-go...

Another 7 hari before birthday Ammar. Celebration with friends on 14.11 ni kat sekolah kebangsaan. So ok la tu, mama bg kek 1.  Malam td, lepas dinner kt luar, balik rumah, mama terus naik atas, proses baju nak gosok. Nak pastikan gosok semua, so senang nk menghadapi hari2 mendatang. Washing Machine masuk bengkel. Tak rosak teruk, tapi sebelum teruk, abah decide hantar bengkel. Macam kereta jugak ek washing machine nih huhuhhu. Sebenarnya washing machine ni sgt reliable, tapi capacity dia yang tak reliable untuk menampung keluarga kami. I told you so En. Shahrun Hisam! We need bigger loads! Tapi tak apa, kita cuba fix in, di samping, pelan nak tambah anak terpaksa digugurkan. Kesian machine tuh. Senak weih! Hahahahaha.... So as for now, Abah akan ke laundy mate 2 hari sekali. Datang weekend, 4 loads of baju! RM20 tukar coins pun tak ckp. *sigh*.... SO, sebenarnya nak cerita malam tadi. Semua orang dah ready masuk tidur, tiba-tiba Aisha shouted out. NAK NUGGET! Aisha lapar at 10.45pm!. ...

"And my mother always says -... sometimes the wrong train can take you to the right station" I remember a day of my life. I was feeling a life again. Somebody asked me out. But we have friend zoned each other. Its just that, im out. Instead of feeling blurry, lonely myself. I was at that time, a saddy sappy girl.  If you ask me now, i would say, it was a wrong train that i took. I should not have left my house. It was weird, i;m a hijab gal. I should not have let myself went about that wild. And be wild. I called that wild, even though it is not. Just a night out. With friends. Which i do not particularly very close to. We are classmates yes, but we were not that close..  I was looking for my identity. As if, i did not have any. And to be wild, out and about. Mingle and talk and have friends... I was so lonely, i succumbed to that particular interest. But i was lost. That friend who asked me out left me. To that place, where i dont feel welcome. He was there, with me, at that...

Cak? heheheh.. Perjalanan Ramadhan setakat ini, Alhamdulillah, lancar. Tidaklah sempurna tetapi lancar. Tak perlu sempurna andai yang sederhana itu telah memadai. Ewah. Hehehe. Dua hari sebelum Ramadhan, kami ambil keputusan untuk bercuti sekejap di Lumut, Perak. Kami bercadang bawa umi dan ayah aku sekali. Suami baru je selesai satu task yang agak memeningkan kepala dia. Well, kepeningan tu tak habis lagi, tapi nampak macam he needed a short break so much. So off we went. It was a nice hotel. Quite remote from the main land - not an island though. As usual, the main essentials for the kids - a pool. We made a quick stop to meet his mother at Hospital Teluk Intan. She is hospitalized for an imbalanced diabetic readings. She is loosing her appetite and somehow still not eating well. Up until now, it has been 5days in the hospital and days before with eating disorder. We still don't know the real diagnosis, still waiting and things not progressing very well. Well, but we're still...

Makin lama aku tengok cerita-cerita Korea ni, baik Filem atau Kisah Bersiri, makin mengingatkan aku minat aku menulis. Aku memang dari dulu suka menulis, tapi tak serius. I'd write off my minds. Tak kisah apa aku fikir, aku tulis je. Panjang lebar. With lots of rojak, like right now, short forms and many other handicaps. Banyak kekurangan. Which is too far from being a good writer, which someone will appreciate my writings. Memang jauh la kan nak ke situ. Tapi makin lama aku tengok cerita-cerita Korea ni. Makin macam rasa, sedap nya kalau aku dapat menulis sesuatu yang beneficial. Sesuatu yang will be appreciated. Bukan apa, ada perbezaan dari sudut genre cerita-cerita garapan Korea dan Melayu. Aku cakap melayu sebab aku jarang tertengok garapan indian or chinese di Malaysia. By the way, garapan Korea lebih specifik, fokus dan teknikal. Ada cinta, ada romantik dan ada lucu, tapi ada juga fakta-fakta teknikal. Contoh kalau kisah pilot. Bukan sekadar pergi balik airport, pakai ...

Mama cuti sejak 1 Mac 2019 haritu sebab Aisha kena Chicken Pox. Smpailah semalam 7 Mac 2019. So today, 8 Mac 2019, Aisha lepak dengan abah. 1. Hantar mama pi kerja dan breakfast dengan mama 2. Kemas rumah, spring cleaning dan cuci kereta 3. Pi ikut abah Solat Jumaat 4. Cuci gigi 5. Potong Rambut

Kita tu kadang, tak berterima kasih dengan Allah. Kita terlalu nak tunjuk, kita ni hebat itu, hebat ini, beruntung itu, beruntung ini. Tapi dalam masa yang sama, susah itu, susah ini. Jadi orang lain kena tolong, kena beri peluang. Selfish! Padahal dalam hidup ini sangat adil. Ada orang lebih kat situ, tapi adalah tempat lain Allah kurangkan. Bila kita nampak orang tu tak ada, kita ada. Mulalah kita kecam, kata orang tu tak buat macam kita buat. Aku okay lagi, kalau sesetengah orang tu suka nak menunjuk-nunjuk kelebihan dia. Okay je, dah itu rezeki dia. Alhamdulillah, aku tumpang bersyukur. Tapi aku tak boleh nak okay, bila mana dia mula mengadili hidup orang lain. Mulalah nak kecam, kononnya orang tu tak cukup berusaha seperti dia! Oh my god, kau macam tau sangat pasal kehidupan orang. Dah tu, masa yang kau tak berusaha sampai nak senang macam orang lain tu tak apa pula?  Kita tak payah berlebih-lebih nak mengadili hakam hidup orang lain. Kita mungkin boleh utarakan pendapat kita seka...

Bukan kisah malam jumaat ye dik. Akak ni sejenis suci, kisah-kisah 18sx tu, akak tak suka nak ceritakan secara maya macam ni. Tapi kalau adik ni kawan akan kat real-life. You will know me as a totally different. Kekadang akak memang rasa akak ni ada split personality. Tapi akak sah kan di sini, Alhamdulillah, akak ni waras. Gila tu mungkin sejenis perangai, yang akak rasa normal je. Kalau adik rasa tak normal, itu masalah adik. Akak tak ambil port. Lantak kau lah situ. It is just you with your own opinion, you owned it, not me! Gituu. Sejenis tetibe emo tetibe ceria. Semalam, akak dah siap mandi wangi-wangi, laki akak announce: "I ada kerja ni..." So akak dah faham, kalau dia cakap gitu, maksudnya, dia expect akak jaga anak-anak, dan jangan kacau dia. Macamlah malam sebelum-sebelum tu dia yang jaga anak kan? Tapi akak sabar je. Dah 12 tahun akak sabar dik. Akak rasa kesabaran akak ni memang semakin lama semakin utuh. Begitulah cinta. Akak rasalahkan.. Then akak pun balas: ...

*Tahun peperiksaan Firdaus Hafiy Ammar Aisha* 2019 - Firdaus UPSR  (38) 2021 - Hafiy     UPSR  (40) 2022 - Firdaus  PT3     (41) 2024 - Firdaus SPM     (43)            Hafiy      PT3                 Ammar   UPSR 2026 - Hafiy      SPM    (45) 2027 - Ammar   PT3     (46)            Aisha      UPSR 2029 - Ammar   SPM    (48) 2030 - Aisha      PT3     (49) 2032 - Aisha      SPM    (51) -- Regards, Siti Fatimah Khairiah M Amin

Just feeling to write something today. Writing about your daily routine is good, so you don't lost track on things happening in your life. So, one day, when you want to write a novel about yourself, you have got the details ready and easy for you to jingle with it. Yesterday, was the second day of the week that you called, weekday. So, it was still not a tiring day, like normal Wednesdays. It feels like Tuesday. Its cooking day everyday now. Since we had a new baby now, we must force ourselves to be more frugal. So yesterday was Kari Sotong. When i was first got married. It has been numerous and tedious attempt to cook Kari. Any Kari you name it. Because, my husband, is so fond of Kari. I even thought, he must be one of the Indians decedent, but his not. It took me maybe 7 years? Of marriage, to finally master in making Kari. Master i mean, not too hot, not to be overwhelmed by Kari mixture, not too dull, not too fatty - oh my god, it were of those days when making Kari messed up w...

I just want to note down something. Because it has been awhile since i've posted anything. A simple write up shall do. 1. Weekend My weekend was spent wisely and simply. Worked as a team, the whole family and everything turn up smoothly. Alhamdulillah. There were three events coming. On saturday, as early as 720am we were on the road, moving to melawati, my husband's aunt house. Solemnization for her son at Rawang. Went there, and then move back, to Bangi to fix coating for BPN, our new baby. Back home just before Asar for prayers. I missed my good friend wedding. Been anticipating to meet her for so long. No luck. Even prepared small token for her. No rezeki. I feel like to use it today. Sorry Azliana Aziz. Hope that everything went well, and smooth sailing marriage till jannah! On sunday, the wedding ceremony for my husband's aunt son. On the bride side. Still in Rawang. So we went there again, after fried meehun breakfast and loads of laundries. We reached...

Mimpi pelik malam tadi. Tapi hanyalah sekadar mimpi.  Aku macam kena kawin dengan seseorang. Suasana macam kat kampung, rumah kampung. Ada sawah. Bukan rumah kampung aku, kat Sg Rambai. Bukan juga rumah kampung suami aku, kat Sg Besar. Tak nampak sangat muka orang yang aku kahwini dalam mimpi aku tu. Tapi macam aku terbayang-bayang muka Zulhuzaimy. Apakah? Lawak sikit di situ. The best part is, Zulhuzaimy ni, dalam mimpi aku tu la, ada adik beradik-adik kot. Dalam drama-drama kan biasanya yang ada kaitan dengan pengantin perempuan adik-adik. Hahahaha. Adik dia is Ungku Ismail Aziz? Apakah lagi sekali? Hahahaha. Ye serius memang terpampang muka Ungku Ismail Aziz dalam mimpi aku tu! Gilo! 1. Aku dah kawin (and i love my husband so much #tetibe!). 2. Ungku tu muda dari aku! Memang tak lah kan.  Kiranya dalam mimpi aku tu, nampak macam UIA tak happy. Aku pun tak happy, of course lah! Sebab aku memang minat dia lebih berbanding Zulhuzaimy (which aku tak minat pun! hello!). Kira macam kawin ...

I've been lately keen to these songs. Most of them, does not related to me, but i'm just enjoying the sound of it. Maybe because of the lyrics, because of the situation, idk. I just loves them and been singing them on my head over and over again. Though, i did not memorize the lyrics.  1. Menang - Faizal Tahir Aku harap En. Suami aku, tujukan lagu ni untuk aku. Tapi... Well, being more mature myself. I will let this to rest. But, i still have hopes.  2. Di Matamu - Sufian Shuhaimi Lirik dia memang macam ek ele lah sikit. Sufian macam salahkan EL buta-buta. Mula-mula aku geram jugak lah. Haha! Tapi lepas tu Fatin Afeefa buat cover lagi ni. Sedap kot suara Fatin. Mmg win lah. So aku pun mula dengar. Tak semena-mena aku tengok MV Sufian Suhaimi. Then aku realized dalam MV tu, Sufian tak salahkan EL 100%. Dan sebenarnya MV tu explain situasi dua insan tu.  1. SS pun memang jenis lelaki gatal kot. Dah ada awek, layan gak perempuan lain (dalam lagu tak sebut) tapi dalam MV, tunjuk ad...

Aku rasa kita patut berhenti berfikir begini: Tak perlu tengok kelebihan orang lain. Apa yang dia ada, tapi kita tak ada. Sebaliknya lihatlah apa yang kita ada tapi dia tak ada. Sebab setiap orang ada kelebihan dan kekurangan sendiri. Sebab, endingnya kita terus menerus membanding-bandingkan kehidupan kita. Terus menerus, 'suka' atau 'happy' atau 'puas hati' melihat orang lain tak ada apa yang kita ada, walaupun orang itu ada apa yang kita tak ada. Kira fikir seimbang begitu barangkali. Bagi aku, setelah berfikir panjang, ia macam sesuatu yang sakit. Sakit, sebab kita  'suka' atau 'happy' atau 'puas hati'    dengan kekurangan orang lain. Sebaliknya kita patut mula berfikir begini: Ya betul, kita tak ada apa yang dia ada. Itu rezeki dia. MashaAllah happy muka dia tu, macam kita pun terjangkit juga dengan kehappyan itu. Dan sebetulnya, apa yang kita ada tu dah cukup buat kita. Alhamdulillah. Kita tak ada apa yang orang lain ada, tapi yan...

Never in my life, Was this ' badge '... Belongs to me It was tough, It was hard It was always been too heavy But, I have chosen to bear all the weight Because, I've enjoyed it --  Regards, Siti Fatimah Khairiah M Amin credit to Korean Drama : While you were sleeping